in such a short time, so much things had happened... attended for so many gatherings / outings, finished with first sem, watching jim starting his masters, me entering hospital for ovarian cyst rupture... really.... looking back, i am personally quite surprised that i managed to survive through that many stuff in such a short period of time!
some random dinner with friends =) *pose inspired by a fake account called "fair society necastle"
what supposed to be a 'childhood memory food' for most kids... but its my first time having it after a long 21 years... hey, at least better late than never!
okok, i'll begin with the boring part university workload. yesh, i wont update much about it, but to finally announce... I am DONE with first semester of my FINAL YEAR! i'm left with one more extremely hectic semester, and if all goes well... I'll be done with uni years! Yay? I'm still having second doubts if it is something i should celebrate, or if the end of my uni years is something i should dread. I will never be able to get back those carefree holidays, never get to enjoy those moments where free flowing (well..not quite) cash will be sent over to me to ensure i am able to lead a good life here... what lies ahead after this? will i even get a job??!! @.@ the horror.... of being... JOBLESS... is... terrifying... =(
anyways, i'll think about that in the near future... next up... parties and outings! =) as usual, pictures will do most of the talking while i'll just post up some captions of the events...
some random dinner with friends =) *pose inspired by a fake account called "fair society necastle"
what supposed to be a 'childhood memory food' for most kids... but its my first time having it after a long 21 years... hey, at least better late than never!
my poor poooooor arm after taking blood test =(
me being admitted into emegency unit for a sever stomach cramp due to "ovarian cyst rupture".
for those who's wondering what's ovarian cyst rupture, it is the presence of a cyst (something like a non-harmful tumour) in the ovaries and it kinda ruptured... at least that's what i understand from the doc.... its not a big deal though, just need to wait for the fluid to get reabsorbed and i'm alive and kicking again... Its amazing to think that i thought that excruciating pain i felt was due to food poisoning. At least this time i've learnt what its' like to have this thing called "ovarian cyst rupture" and i pray that i'll never ever get it again for the rest of my life!
Time is ticking every second, and yet i dont quite seem to be enjoying myself this holiday. I look around the room, same old stuff... look at jim, and he's either watching naruto, or chatting with some of his random friends online or studying.... As i turn to my laptop, and gaze at the screen blankly... thinking... what should I do? almost nobody will drop me message just to chat because i've always been busy... the only person who'd message me would either me mom, or dad, or jim asking me to look at some websites.
its holidays, i should be having fun, i should be relaxing, i should be... happy? but yet, i dont feel the happiness i would usually have during holidays. instead i force myself to read my notes for my placements due to boredom... yes, i study when i'm bored..... sounds pretty pathetic to me.... i tried playing on the piano on the outside, but its winter and the keys are too cold! before i know it, my fingers are numb, and i keep hitting the wrong keys on the piano... *sigh*
*sigh....* i miss malaysia, i miss my old life, i miss my friends, i think i miss my high school life the most.... i miss my house in malaysia, a place where i would actually call it HOME, because that's where i am always happy and contented with life. Even when there's nothing to do, i'm contented at just lying on the bed being surrounded by my cuddly soft toys, with the sun beaming into my room, filling my room with enough sunshine to brighten anyone who's feeling gloomy.... and not to mention, the occasional screams from mom downstairs asking me to get my lazy butt off the bed and do something more productive...
oh well.... guess i have to get used to the current life i have now.... i cant imagine how things would be like in december where i'll be alone for my birthday and for christmas... i'm still wondering what should i do during december and january after my placements.. should i find myself a part time job to keep myself pre-occupied? hmm... i wonder..... i truly wonder.... hmmm.....
*deep in thoughts*
Shulin
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